Poem - Goodbye

This poem is about the death of my friend, Mariko. I have…had been friends with Mai (her nickname) for over 10 years; I wrote this on the one year anniversary of her death; 10/28/2016. She passed away from lung and bone cancer. She lived in the UK and I was unable to attend her funeral due to the cost, which I think made it even more painful. It still feels like it happened yesterday, I still cry each time I talk or write about her. She was only 32, her last battle with cancer was her fourth battle, this time it won.

Goodbye

Laying here in the darkness with
headphones jammed into my ears,
trying to drown out sorrow.
Tears stain my face and pillow.
I am empty but filled with rage.

There was no time to prepare,
you left with no goodbyes.
How dare you leave me and die.
You left me here, in a much
darker world without you.

I lay here, trying to warp
my grief into hate for you.
But failing miserably,
no matter how hard I try.
I will always love you.

A faint whisper is coming
through the headphones.
It sounds like your voice.
Is that you, trying to say
your final goodbye?

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